My little update! sorry it's been so long.
Well there comes a time when you just need to get away to clear your head!And that's exactly what i did for a few weeks. My family live over 10 hours away and i decided to go down and spend time with them and relax ( well try to relax) which i did after a few days. I guess there's just something about being with family that makes everything better sometimes. Being able to spend time with my little niece who i used to be around every single day and miss out on her growing up and all her little milestones, like talking for the first time and going to kindergarten and stuff like that. The best thing was even though she was so little when i saw her last she still remembered me! My anxiety was so good the whole time i was there! I HAVENT FELT SO GOOD IN SO LOOONNGG!!
I thought i would just check in, because i wanted to write everyday but i guess things don't always go to plan. Since i have been back here ( not home) i have started talking to a counselor again but and online counselor and surprisingly it actually is working a little. I don't know whether it's the fact i feel more comfortable talking about my problems when i don't have to look at the person i'm telling them to, so i don't have to feel like they are judging me all the time. so that's a plus i guess !
I'm sure i'm not the only one who feels so uncomfortable leaving the house? And someone who has an outfit on but gets told that we are going out in public and changes like a million times before you feel comfortable in what you're wearing. I'm the kind of person who feels better about covering up ever possible piece of my body! I guess that's why i love winter so much. The fact i can wear nice baggy oversized jumpers and skinny jeans and that way i'm all covered up! I can't go out in shorts and a singlet noooo wayyyy!! But the thing is being at a coastal town i can go out wearing a singlet and shorts? It's amazing how a change of scenery can make all the difference. I guess not caring about what people think is something us girls who think this way is something we need to work on no matter how hard it will be.
I just want people to realise that it doesn't matter if you're a plus size girl, because you're still so beautiful! so who cares what people think… Go out in something that you think is cute whether it is a crop top ( now don't be scared we all think some of them look cute paired up with some nice jean ripped shorts) so go out in that. Wear as many shorts and crop tops as you like! don't hide your body ever! never feel ashamed of what you look like. If you want to change the way your body looks to help you feel more confident then you do it for yourself! Not because someone has said something. And don't ever starve yourself. That is the worst possible way to help loose weight. You need to eat clean fresh and healthy and just exercise a little a day. Download some apps on your phone or watch a workout on youtube. Who cares if you can't do half the stuff they can do atleast you're trying.
I guess that's my little update. Don't hesitate to comment some questions or even if you want to talk about some issues you have trouble telling someone else. It would be good to have someone to talk to also!
have a great day/ afternoon/ night / evening/ morning!
Next update when i get time!